Insomia

NO SURPRISES
Radiohead


A heart that's full up like a landfill
A job that slowly kills you
Bruises that won't heal
You look so tired and unhappy
Bring down the government
They don't, they don't speak for us
I'll take a quiet life
A handshake of carbon monoxide
No alarms and no surprises
No alarms and no surprises
No alarms and no surprises
Silent, silent
This is my final fit, my final bellyache with

No alarms and no surprises
No alarms and no surprises
No alarms and no surprises please
Such a pretty house, and such a pretty garden

No alarms and no surprises (let me out of here)
No alarms and no surprises (let me out of here)
No alarms and no surprises please (let me out of here)



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I don't know why I so love this song. Maybe I was so stunned that I feel that I need a break from the roller coaster of surprises and shits that happen to me. I want a break from the monotonous chaos I am into--meeting people, trusting them, accepting them, believing in them and totally screwing it all up. I'm tired of bullshits. 

Okay. I need a smoke. Cigarettes and earphones they are true friends. Alcohol? though I've been trying to avoid you, I miss you. No one can tame me, except you. 

I can't sleep. Caffeine overload. Coffee, you're only a passing addiction. It must be my GERD (gastroesophageal reflux disorder) that prevents me from "making love" with you again. You gave me sleepless nights.